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  ‘It’s real, then?’ he asked in a bemused voice.

  ‘I think so,’ she replied, just as bemused. ‘Actually, now Juanita and Hamish are in on the act, not to mention planning our wedding, I don’t think we can get out of it.’

  She clasped his fingers tightly as she spoke, the happiness welling so deeply inside her she needed him to anchor her to earth.

  ‘Not to mention McTavish,’ Angus reminded her, then he kissed her and she knew he was all the anchor she would ever need. In spite of all the storms she had weathered in her life, she was now safely in port…

  With Angus by her side!

  Epilogue

  BABY Hannah arrived nine months after the wedding, her father in attendance at her birth, her brother, Hamish, her first visitor. Kate held the tiny mortal in her arms, her heart so full of love for all her family she was afraid she might burst.

  ‘Can I take her to school for show-and-tell?’ Hamish asked, poking a cautious finger into his sister’s rosebud mouth.

  ‘Not this week,’ Kate told him, ‘but soon. She and I can both go but you’ll have to have a lot of practice in holding her before we take her there.’

  ‘Are you mad?’ Angus demanded when Hamish and Juanita had departed. ‘He can’t take a baby to school for show-and-tell—think of the germs?’

  Kate grinned at him and used their linked hands to tug him closer.

  ‘No more fears, remember,’ she said, kissing him on the lips. ‘We’re a glass-half-full family. In fact, in my opinion, our glass is full and running over, so stop worrying about every little thing. Now take your daughter for a walk—I need a shower before she demands another feed.’

  It was a test, and Kate knew it. She also knew how hard it would be for Angus to walk out of the room, so she swung her legs out of the bed and held them up for his inspection.

  ‘No swollen calves, no aches and pains, no redness or tenderness. I am fine, Angus, and you know it, so go.’

  He kissed her again, then lifted Hannah out of her arms and left the room, walking the corridor with her, talking quietly, telling her how much he loved her, how much he loved her brother, but most of all how much he loved her mother. Telling her about family, about her grandparents who were due out from Scotland any day and how, one day, she, too, would have children and her mother would have her dreams come true—she would be a grandmother…

  Fairytale on The Children’s Ward

  by

  Meredith Webber

  Chapter One

  OLIVER RANKIN hated being late. He was a man who believed there were no acceptable excuses for it, and condemned the rudeness of it. But he was undoubtedly running late, due mainly to car trouble on his drive from Melbourne to Sydney—trouble that had delayed him twenty-four hours while a part was sent, apparently by camel train, from Melbourne to the Victorian border.

  Then there was Sydney peak-hour traffic—unbelievable!

  Eventually, however, the latest fellow appointed to Alex Attwood’s paediatric cardiac surgical team pulled into the parking lot at St James Hospital for Children, abandoned his car in a board-members-only parking spot and raced into the building.

  Fortunately he’d spent a month with the team earlier in the year so he knew where to go, but he still only made the meeting with a couple of seconds to spare.

  Relief swamped him!

  Until—

  The world whirled before his eyes. Low blood pressure—all the rushing…

  He dropped into a chair as Alex introduced him to Angus, the new surgeon on the team, and reminded him he’d already met Kate. Then he closed his eyes, and opened them again.

  Carefully.

  The apparition had come right into the room, later than he was.

  A totally beautiful, totally mind-blowing apparition…

  ‘And this is Clare Jackson, our new perfusionist,’ Oliver heard Alex say. ‘I’m more delighted than I can tell you to welcome Clare to our team as she trained in the US at the same hospital as Theo, and the oldies on the team will know how good he was.’

  Oliver battled to sort out the disbelief in his head, to actually accept that the woman who still, from time to time, haunted his dreams was right here in this room.

  Impossible!

  Except it wasn’t! There she was, head tilted towards Alex, so he saw her in profile, and caught the long line of her neck—the neck he’d loved to—

  Clare Jackson?

  He’d had the list of team members’ names for a couple of weeks, but as she’d shown up on that as C. Jackson and most perfusionists he’d worked with had been males, he hadn’t given a thought to the coincidence of surnames.

  Alex was talking, but the words didn’t penetrate Oliver’s brain. Not only was Clare right here in this room, but apparently she was a team member. He’d be working with her.

  She was a perfusionist?

  From actress to lifesaving medical equipment expert in ten short years?

  ‘Clare!’ he’d managed to blurt out when they’d been introduced.

  She’d nodded, lustrous dark hair swirling around her head, brown eyes half hooded, long eyelashes hiding any emotion those eyes might reveal at this unexpected reunion.

  ‘Oliver,’ she’d said, her voice still so familiar a tremor of excitement had shaken his body.

  He tried to concentrate on Alex’s introductions to the rest of the team, but how could he? He snuck a glance at Clare, and was annoyed to see that she seemed totally unfazed by this incredible coincidence.

  Clare held her body very still, glad she’d learned how to do this years ago—back when she was a drama student at university, back when she’d first met Oliver.

  Besides, if she held her body very still it might not fall apart, which was what it was threatening to do any moment.

  Her body and her mind!

  That he should be here—on the same team—was so unbelievable she had to wonder if it was some giant conspiracy of the Fates. Of course, even ten years ago, Oliver had been headed for a paediatric specialty, but he’d never mentioned surgery.

  Whatever, it was indisputably Oliver sitting on the other side of the room, ignoring her in the politest possible way. Although what could he have said?

  Long time, no see?

  Not for Oliver the trite phrase, nor even idle conversation. The problem was that eventually the meeting would end and they would have to leave the room and some kind of conversation would obviously have to take place!

  He’d come to claim Emily!

  Nausea roiled in her stomach as the thought struck like the flick of a whip, but common sense prevailed. He’d obviously been as shocked to see her as she was to see him, and if he’d wanted his child surely he’d have got in touch back when she’d told him about the pregnancy.

  Or in the intervening years?

  And the fact that he hadn’t—that he obviously didn’t want to know his daughter—hardened her heart against him once again.

  She could handle this! She could handle anything!

  Easy to think, harder to do. Fear for her daughter fluttered in her heart, fear for Em’s emotional stability.

  Her mind ran wild.

  Now he was here, wouldn’t he want to see his daughter—to get to know her?

  And if he still refused to acknowledge her, how would that affect Em?

  Thinking about her daughter opened up a void so deep and black Clare felt as if she was teetering on a precipice, about to be plunged into a bottomless abyss.

  Yet how could she not think of Emily, not put her first?

  She’d have to talk to Oliver, find out what he wanted and whether Emily was part of it. Then she—perhaps they—could work out how to get father and daughter together—or not—with the least possible upheaval in Emily’s life.

  She sneaked another glance at the man causing such havoc in her mind, and this time felt her heart turn over. Silver threads had infiltrated his sandy hair at both temples, lending him an air of distinction, but Oliver had always been
a distinguished-looking man—tall, lean, tanned, with dark brows above those startling pale green eyes. In profile slightly hawkish, the long thin nose tipped down just slightly at the end.

  Pointing to his lips?

  That had been a stupid fantasy of hers in her youth, for Oliver Rankin had the most beautiful mouth she’d ever seen, on a man or woman.

  Oliver!

  Huge inward sigh!

  She tried to concentrate on Alex’s words, but her mind was way back in the past.

  With Oliver…

  How had things gone so disastrously wrong between them? How had she been stupid enough to walk out on him?

  Because he didn’t want the child you yearned for, she reminded herself. Didn’t want a child at all and definitely not right then for all it would have been an ideal time as far as you were concerned. But part of the stupidity had been thinking he’d come after you, and that somehow the two of you could have patched things up.

  That hadn’t happened!

  She’d spent a miserable Christmas at home on the farm with her family, then the realisation had dawned that, wanted or not, she was going to have a baby.

  Tentative delight…

  Quickly quelled at the thought of Oliver’s reaction.

  Which hadn’t come!

  Unable to contact him by phone or email, she’d finally written, but when he hadn’t answered her letters—had ignored her unexpected news—she’d decided she’d have to forget all about him, which, she’d admitted to herself even then, was easier said than done. Until the diagnosis of her father’s illness had turned her family’s life upside down and concern and grief for him had swamped the pain of losing Oliver. Then, within weeks of Em’s birth, life had changed so irrevocably Oliver had been the last person she’d been thinking of.

  No, that was wrong. She’d longed for him—for his presence, his support, to have him there to share her dread and fear…

  And not having him, she’d turned to the man who was there—

  She shuddered as she shook the memory away, and concentrated on what Alex Attwood, the team leader, was saying.

  ‘Oliver, Kate and Clare, you’ll all be working with Angus tomorrow. Clare, I know you’ve settled into your flat, so maybe you could show Oliver where his is. Did I tell you he’s taking the other flat in Rod’s house?’

  Of course Alex hadn’t told her! Excited as she’d been at coming back to Australia and getting a job in such an elite unit, she’d still have remembered if someone had said, Oh, and a chap called Oliver Rankin will be living next door! Not only remembered, but packed up and left.

  No, she didn’t run from men any more, but she’d have had time to at least think about this situation, to prepare herself.

  To prepare Emily?

  Oh, sweet reason, what was she going to do about Emily? For one crazy moment she thought of phoning the school and asking if they could take her as a full boarder rather than a weekly one, but it was hard enough on both of them to be separated five days a week.

  Alex had turned to Oliver, and was explaining. ‘The flat I arranged for you is in my father-in-law’s house just down the road from the hospital. Rod Talbot, my father-in-law, is in a wheelchair so he has the ground-floor apartment and has turned upstairs into two small but comfortable flats. Of course, you don’t have to stay there. Once you get to know the area, you might find somewhere that suits you better. Because of the proximity to the hospital, the flats are easy to let—not that Rod needs the money.’

  ‘Rod Talbot?’ Oliver repeated, his voice stirring so many memories in Clare’s body she found herself shivering. ‘Is he the writer?’

  Alex nodded, and while Oliver talked about how much he enjoyed Rod Talbot’s books—Oliver having time to read?—Clare muddled over the other information she’d received. The bit about Oliver being in the other flat in Rod Talbot’s house—the flat with the door right opposite her door. Oliver living so close, sleeping so close…

  A tremor of memory ran through her body before she brought her mind firmly back to the major problem.

  Oliver spending his weekends next door to her and Emily!

  Once again her reaction was flight. They’d go back to the States; she’d always find work there. But she steeled herself against such weakness—flight wasn’t an option. She wasn’t an emotional young woman any longer; she was a grown-up, mature—a qualified and respected career woman with an important position in a team that saved children’s lives.

  Even if she did feel like a teenager right now, with all the confusion and angst and dreadful insecurity that came with the transition from child to adult.

  The meeting was breaking up, the anaesthetist from the second team taking the new surgeon off to the childcare centre. Dear heaven, had Oliver married again? Would he have children?

  No, he’d been adamant about that, about never having children. That was why they’d split up. To a certain extent Clare had understood, because it had been soon after he’d found out a little about his own past, found out his life had been built upon a lie.

  Thinking about that time—how hurt Oliver had been—diverted her thoughts from Oliver’s marital arrangements, although if there was a wife, what would she think about Em?

  It was all Clare could do not to wail out loud. How could this be happening to her? And now, when both she and Em were so excited to be back in Australia?

  She pulled herself together with an effort.

  Best not to think about Em! Not here, not now…

  And it was useless to be speculating about Oliver’s marital state, let alone whether he had children or not, although Rod had told Clare hers was the larger of the two flats, so a wife and children could hardly fit into the other one.

  This realisation made her feel a little easier for all of five seconds, until it occurred to her he could have left his wife and kids—if he’d weakened on the children stand—in Melbourne while he settled in.

  ‘Clare.’

  Her name in his voice, a sound she’d never thought to hear again. No-one said her name as Oliver did! And no-one else, with just that one word, could send those stupid shivers down her spine.

  After ten years?

  It was unbelievable.

  She’d heard of muscle memory—sportspeople talked about it. Was there such a thing as nerve memory, that every nerve in her body remembered…?

  He was close now, waiting for her. The composure he wore like a well-cut suit to hide the emotional Italian inside him was so familiar she wanted to reach out and touch him, to feel the warmth of the man beneath that cool facade.

  Was she mad?

  Touching Oliver would be disastrous—had always been disastrous!—because one touch had never been enough.

  She dug through her memory for an image of that last morning, not long before Christmas, when, all composure gone, fury and resentment had flared from his body and burnt in his eyes. That was the Oliver she needed to keep in mind.

  Which was okay as far as resisting his appeal went, but what about the rest? What about Emily?

  Clare felt physically sick, nausea spreading through her body. How could this have happened? She pulled herself together with a mammoth effort, hoping outwardly at least she might look composed.

  ‘So we’re to be neighbours,’ she said, offering a polite smile, while her bewildered heart beat a wild tattoo inside her chest, and her thoughts ran this way and that like mice in a maze.

  ‘It seems that way.’

  Were his words strained? Was Oliver feeling the same mix of disbelief, and confusion—and surely not excitement?—as she was?

  Of course he wouldn’t be. For one thing, Oliver didn’t do confusion.

  Her heart skittered again but this time it was nothing to do with excitement—more like dread and fear and trepidation. She had to say something.

  ‘I did write to you, you know.’

  It sounded pathetic but at least it caught his attention.

  ‘When?’ he demanded, his voice hard and tig
ht.

  So hard and tight the tiny bit of courage that had prompted Clare to tell him faded, which meant the next words came out all breathless and confused.

  ‘End of January, and again later in the year.

  ‘You wrote to me at the end of January? Wasn’t that a bit late, considering it was before Christmas you walked out? I’d definitely moved on by then, physically and emotionally.’

  Pain stabbed through Clare’s body at the last words, but what was he saying?

  ‘You didn’t get any letters from me—then or later?’

  Glacial green—that’s how Oliver’s eyes could look…and were looking now.

  ‘No.’

  He shook his head to emphasise the word and, knowing he would never lie to her, Clare felt a stab of deep resentment—not to mention pain—as she realised he didn’t know about her pregnancy. He didn’t know he had a daughter, a daughter who would be right there in the flat next door to his come Friday!

  She had to tell him!

  Easy enough to have the thought but how to do it?

  And when, and where?

  This was hardly an appropriate time or place and, what’s more, he was talking to her again, saying something, although with the wild furore going on her mind it was a struggle to make out the words.

  Forcing herself to focus, she realised his conversation was nothing more than the polite inquiries of old acquaintances catching up.

  ‘But a perfusionist? What made you change course? What happened to life on the stage?’

  Clare cast an anxious glance behind him, but there was no-one nearby to overhear an almost honest answer.

  ‘Long story short, I moved to Queensland and studied science. I met a perfusionist who used to work with Alex when he was in Melbourne. I learnt more about it and decided it was the dream job as far as I was concerned. I began my studies in Brisbane, then went to Chicago to get more qualifications and experience, and here I am.’

  Oliver knew he was staring at her, replacing his mental image of a twenty-five-year-old soap-star Clare with this more mature adult version—more mature, and even more beautiful. And the reaction in his chest was an ectopic heartbeat, nothing more. Ectopic heartbeats happened to some people all the time, and most people some time in their life…